Feeling a bit of hope...

The more I think about what my new son will be like, the more excited/nervous I get. I'm excieted to see him, and get to know his personality, but I am nervous about the disabilities and pain he will have to encounter as he grows.

I do have better feelings now that I have talked to a neuro sugeon and gotten more of an idea what spina bifida can "really entail". I still need to see an orthopedic doctor about his club feet.

I think the biggest hump for us is the financial one. I'm hoping that I can find the time between work, dr appts, and family to explore any and/or all avenues that may be of some help.

I know that no one plans on having a special needs child, but God apparantly chooses who he thinks will do the best job. Now that I am over most of the anger, I still wonder what in the world God is thinking somtimes. Because at times I really wonder if I am going to be able to do this. It's a big leap of faith for me!

I admire all of the strong Moms who have gone through this before me! They have all helped me so much in being understanding, loving, and supportive in any questions I come up with. And by also just being a friend!

I found a couple of great support groups online. The spina bifida support group on www.babycenter.com (my favorite) & www.dailystrength.org
Both have been the best thing for me! I have been shown through others experiences that it will be hard, but it really isn't impossible!