A Special Poem

A fellow mother of a special needs child posted this poem on face book written by Tricia Proefrock , and I just had to share!  I love it, and it really touched my heart.  I hope one day that Tanner will see me like this....


I know Different


I have felt your tears, falling on my face.
... Someone else might think they are tears of sadness, because of what I can't do.

I KNOW DIFFERENT.

I know those tears pour from your heart out of gratitude for me, because of what I CAN do : I can love everyone in the purest form possible. Unconditionally. I can be judged, but will never judge in return. I know different because I feel, in your hugs and kisses, that I'm perfect just the way I am.

I have seen you hang your head down in shame, when we go out on adventures.
Someone else might think you are ashamed of having a child like me.

I KNOW DIFFERENT.

I know you are ashamed of the grown-ups who ignore me, yet talk happily to all the other children. The grown-ups who won't look you in the eye, but stare at me, when they think you don't see. I know different because I've seen the many, many more times you have raised your head up high, with pride, because I'm yours. : )

I have heard you whispering desperate prayers at night. Someone else might think you are asking God to make me a typical kid.

I KNOW DIFFERENT.

I know you are thanking Him that I got to be here, with you, for another day- exactly how I am. I know different because I have heard you ask me never to leave you. And I have heard you cheer for me, every single day of my life- you tell me I don't need to be typical to be amazing, I just need to be here.

I know you have a big job, taking care of me.
I know your body hurts, because I'm getting so big.
I know that more than anything, you want to hear me say your name.
And I know you worry that you aren't good enough, and that you will fail me.

BUT I KNOW DIFFERENT MOMMY.....

I know that even on your worst days, you will always be enough for me, and I will always love you more than you know. ♥

What Tanner says....

Tanner is so funny at times, and has a lot of random thoughts!  Below are a few conversations that have happened recently....

Me - "Tanner, is there a baby inside mommies belly?"
Tanner - "No way!"
Me - "If there is no baby, what is there making mommies belly so round?"
Tanner - "Just lots of food"  And then he giggles....
Sigh..... gotta love him!

As I've been getting all the baby stuff out and ready, Tanner has been really curious about all of it.

Tanner - " Mom, what you doin?"
Me - "'Getting stuff ready for baby Connor"
Tanner "For baby Tanner?"
Me - "No baby Connor"  Tanner, you are a big boy now, not a baby"
Tanner - "No, I baby Tanner"


Recently Tanner has become obsessed with Cookie Monster.... and lately anytime he doesn't want to do something, Cookie monster is doing it instead.

Tanner - "Mom, cookie monser in my bed"  Cookie Monser is outside"  "Cookie monser goin ta eat my dinner"  "Cookie Monser brush teef (teeth)"  
Me - "No, Tanner you are supposed to do it"
Tanner - "I don't tink so!"  Cookie monser do it!"

I don't know where he gets this stuff, but its cute.  It's so hard for me to get after him about it.

I once said that I couldn't wait for Tanner to talk....... and now..... he talks ALL THE TIME!!!

It's been awhile

It's been a long while since I posted - so this post is simply to say that I'm going to try harder!  I'm going to try to catch up before our new baby comes in 38 days!  Because then I know that I'll really not have time!

Spaghetti Song

This is Tanner's FAVORITE song right now, and I probably sing it to him or with him at least 30-50 times a day!  Please don't mind my awful singing voice in the background.  This video is just too cute not to share!

Utah Trip..... Part 1

Tanner and I took a trip to Utah for 3 weeks. from  July 18th - August 8th.  We had a lot of Adventures. This part is just from July. Tanner has gotten tired of me taking pictures of him, but I got what I could. This first picture is of him and his cousin Steven, playing the piano.  My sister Trina has 4 boys, and Tanner called them "the boys".  

Here Tanner is @ Great Grandma Winward's house "brushing" his hair.  Great Grandma lives in Riverton, Utah. It's great to stop there on the way up to Cache Valley, and stop there on the way back. She is Ray's grandma, and such a sweet lady. 

Tanner also got very attached to the "mini" chair that she had there. Just his size!

Tanner's favorite thing to do while in Utah was play at the parks!  He loved being able to be outside so much! 

This was his favorite parks out of all the ones we went too. 

When he got tired of the park, he loved to "push" the stroller around on the grass. 

But then right back to playing. 

At my mom's house Tanner had a lot of fun!  His most favorite thing was these tuperware animals that he could build and play with.  Here he is with his "zoo". 

Counting how many there are!

Near my mom's house in Logan there is a mini zoo at a park. It's called Willow park, and was always a favorite for me when I was a child, and Tanner likes it too.  We went several times. His favorite animals were the turtles and the monkeys.  I was only able to catch the turtles on this trip.  

And the BEST thing Tanner did while in Utah!  He walked in his walker with my help of course!  I took it with us to see  if he would get more into it, and he totally did!  So glad I took it!  He's getting there slowly but surely!  So proud of him!

Stay tuned for more adventures!

Phoenix Children's Museum - July

The beginning of July I took Tanner to the Phoenix Children's Museum.  I was a bit disappointed by it because of the fact that because Tanner does stand or walk on his own, he wasn't allowed to do over half the things that they have there.  But we made the best of what he could do and had fun anyway.  My mother in law - Grandma Pat also joined us for the fun. 

 Here are Grandma and Tanner in the "Noodle Forest"

Tanner also had a lot of fun with this sand table.  The table had lights under the plastic making the sand turn different colors. 

He also enjoyed looking at the "Can you find" puzzles. 

His most favorite thing by far was this contraption!  Basically myself or Grandma would put little hankies in the entry port, and air would blow it all the way through and blow it out at Tanner.  He loved it!

He was really good at picking them up for more fun!

So surprised to have them flying right at him!

Anxiously awaiting more!

Whoa!!!  

"Catching" with Grandma

Some even landed on his head. 

Needless to say we still had fun, and he was pooped on the way back home!

June........

I'm sitting here trying to remember what happened in June.  Guess I shouldn't slack off so much on blogging eh?  Not as many pics were taken, but at least some were!  

Tanner loves any "pack pack" (backpack).  He loves to put his toys in and cart them around the house. 

Gets better at standing as time goes by.  Still needs something to hang onto, but has starting cruising! Yay!

This is Tanner being silly.  He wanted his shirt on like this, and then all of the sudden he shouted, " I super Tanner!"  Silly boy!

Still so flexible.  This kid can put his feet up by his head easily!

Tanner and Mom hanging out with our Mickey hats on. 

Tanner just being cute.

P.S.  This is for you Jessie :)